October 15th 1858

Friday Oct 15th 1858

To day I have been at work all day and to night we all are going up to *Carries. I think I can turn back to my last spring writings now but I cannot with as free a conscience as I did then. December will tell if it is not changed, still again will I wound where I would give but pleasure. Yet I believe in spite of my faults I have many friends. May I always have as many. But I am doing very wrong by giving **M- every reason to think I care a great deal for him, when I do not care anything. I fear we shall not part friends.

 Editor's note: * Her sister

                ** Moses

October 14th 1858

Thursday Oct 14th 1858

Monday night Allie and I went walking with Decker, went down to Mr Beebee’s and back . Had a very pleasant . Tuesday, went down to Carrie’s and Moses came to see me in the evening. He was quite angry with me because I called Allie in (on?) Wednesday staid at home like good children and had no company. Thursday, I went up to take my music lesson. Had a talk with Decker from the third story. In the evening Decker came to see up (us) and Jo Smith stayed until one o clock. We had a very nice little talk and I did get him to tell me some things and if I could not get him to tell me all. I’ll remember Sammie and *Agnes. I may stand in her way again if she makes remarks and as for Samie (Sammie) when I get time, I’ll flirt with him to pay him off. It will do him good I’m certain.

Editor's note: Agnes has the crush on Jo Smith. (...Its hard to keep up :) )

 

October 9th 1858

Saturday Oct 9th 1858

I feel very lonely to night. Why I know not ,for I have no reason for feeling so. Tuesday night, Allie and I went out riding. Allie with Jo R- and I with Jim H-, very much to my displeasure and it would have been still more so if it had not been so very pleasant and we had White's horse and carriage so that I could take my ease, and I did not trouble myself much about making myself agreeable. Wednesday, Jim and Decker came to see us and went up to the Academy with us to look at the constellations. I had a very nice little talk with Decker and shall remember his saving word? out at the back door and talking with me some little while.  Sunday evening Jo Smith called. I am not forgotten by any means I guess. He comes to see me again Thursday.