December 6th 1858

Sunday Dec 6th 1858

Last Monday attended Mr Giletts lecture on astronomy, went with Jo- and Allie, Julia and Elliot Tattle, and Carrie called on us before the lecture. Wednesday night went to another of the course, came home very independantly alone because I would not come with Allie and J-. Tuesday evening went over to Mr Whites and played for them all the evening. Mr Harte? came home with us. Thursday evening Decker called on us and we went up to singing school. Mose and Jo came home with us. Friday night went to the lecture. Mose and Jo spent the evening after the lecture with us. Saturday evening there [was] another lecture by Enoch Williams but Allie and I concluded we did not want to go. Today it has rained all day most and as Ma was sick we all stayed at home. But I am so tired of haveing nothing to do that I shall go another time. Report say's Harvey is going to be married soon next week. I believe to look at my first writings in this book anyone might think that prehaps I would regret it, but it is not so. Of all of his friends I would be the first to wish it was so. A strange thing is the human heart. His is [a] very deceitful one. I have learned to know him well in the last year and it has not improved him very much in my opinion.

November 28th 1858

Nov 28th 1858

It is a week to day since I wrote before. Monday I was nineteen.  In the evening I went to the Lecture with Moses, Allie with Joseph. But when we got up there Joseph said he should not go in and as M always does as he does, we went in alone and left them on the steps . They came in in a few minutes looking very sheepish. I had quite a time telling Mose he was ashamed of me. They came in and staid till twelve making up. I shall remember shadow's on the wall some time- first advances to a reconcitation [reconciliation] – – Wednesday night went to singing school. Josie, Dora, Jo, Greeny?, Marie and George were there. Of our far off friends, J- and M- came home with us. Thursday night singing school again. Again J- + M- came home with us. Friday night went over to the --fair with Link. By it was a regular Arab street bass? I had some fun talking with George Hodges. Saturday night Jo S- made me a visit he said he should not come to see me again untill he had learned to think of me only as a friend, that he loved me better the more he saw of me. To day I have been to church half a day and slept the other half.

 

 

November 21st 1858

Nov 21st 1858

Friday I attended Mrs Beebee's funeral. The sermon was be [by] Mr. Worthington assisted by Mr. Judd and Mr. Me? Gessold. Mr. A. J. Warner took charge of the singing . In the evening, Allie and I went up to the Lecture, met Jo R- in the hall and went and took a walk. Harvey and Jo R came home with us. They came in a [and] made us quite a visitation. Harvey is trying to do something but I have not yet made up my mind what that something is. But of one thing I am quite sure: he is deceitful and cannot be a very good friend to any girl. Of the boy's, I cannot say.

Thanksgiving, November 18th 1858

Thursday Nov 18th 1858 Thanksgiving

It is some time since I have written but there has been a good deal of change in this short time since I wrote last. There has been a bridal and one who then was in the full enjoyment of health has sicknened and died. To morrow the grave will close over all that remans (remains) of Mrs Elenore Beebee. She leaves a large circle of friends to mourn her loss. Last night we were invited to Laura's. Unfair but it was postponed on account of Mrs Beebee's death. Singing school has comenced again and we have a lecture by Mr Gillet twice a week. Monday night Allie and I went with Decker and Beckwith. Jo R- and Moses came from singing school with us, they both went off mad. Jo S- came to see me last Friday and I found I was mistaken when I wrote that to meet would be painfull to us both. We had a very pleasant visit never but once was I reminded that there was any difference in our meetings. I was plagueing him and he spoken so sorrofully and said "Dont plague me to night Mary. I have enough to bother me now". It sobered me in a minute and he spoke again, "Did I make you feel bad Mary? dont ,you are not to blame". I told him to forgive me but I forgot the past.  He seemed so very gay then he spoke bitterly and said he truly had much to feel merry about to day. We all went over to Mr White's to dinner had a very nice dinner. To night I am writing while Ally is playing, feeling very lonesome if I am not mistaken because Jo dont (didnt?) come? She will feel different if I am not mistaken three years from now but I must practice. Good night.

November 6th 1858

Sunday Nov 6th 1858

It is a week since I have written anything about my doings. It has been a monotonous lonesome week. There has been nobody to see us but once when Decker called. Moses is mad and of course Jo S- comes no more. I am almost inclined to ask him to come again but I cannot but call it a weakness for such a meeting could but be painful to us both. It would be doing him an injustice that I would not do to him for I feel a greater friendship for him that anyone else. Yet I can never be anything but a friend to him for I have a greater duty to preform to my parents. I am their youngest and only remaining child and I shall never marry without their free and full consent. Yet in the time I have been with him I have learned to respect- I had almost said love him, though I should not say that for I never did love.

New Picture of Mary!

I just made an amazing discovery in my parent's basement! There had been a box of old family pictures down there that my grandparents had given to us. I knew they were there, but I did not have the appreciation for family history at the time to look at them. I decided to finally look through the box last night, and lo and behold! We happened to have a picture of Mary and even a picture of her daughter!

:) :)

October 31st 1858

Sunday Oct 31st 1858

Went to church all day and sung up stairs. I have not see Jo since that eventfull night and I have got over feeling so very bad as I did the next day. Moses has not been to see me. I am very glad I did not go to the party. Whether he ever gets over being mad or not it makes no difference to me. I guess he never did get over the slight to his dear L----?